God knows me

The rough week continued into a rough weekend.

My family went camping and I had class,

so I didn't get to go.

I was beyond lonely.

They got home today

and I find I am still beyond lonely.

I feel invisible lately.

Unnoticed.

Completely.

And I've given up on a lot this week.

I gave up on my best friend.

My job.

Body.

Finding new friends.

Money.

A lot.

I've felt like God just forgot about me.

Forgot to give me directions,

friends,

a job,

He just got busy and forgot.

But tonight sitting on my floor

thinking about everything I've given up on,

and everything I've lost.

God remembered me.

He helped me find something.

It's going to save me money,

time,

and days of stress

Things I've been preparing for.

So I'm grateful.

I'm blessed to have what I do.

I still don't have friends,

a good body,

money,

or a job.

But I'm grateful.

I'm just grateful He remembered ME.

Today

Today...rather this week I'm frustrated.
I feel like I'm at a standstill and I don't like it.
I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing,
planning ahead as much as possible;
and I feel like its all getting me absolutely
no where.
I've run out of friends.
They're all "experiencing" life.
AKA getting trashed, sleeping around and
"finding out who they are"...
they just don't want to be accountable to anyone.
So I'm left with classmates and co-workers.
Who challenge my religion every chance they get.
I'm tired of it this week.
Just worn out.
So family it is.
I really do have a great family.
And I'm grateful for that.
School is fine.
Money is tight.
The gospel is true.
I just wish I had one someone to share this with.
Elder Ohio and I talk consistently...
he's the only friend worth mentioning.
Haven't heard from Elder California
nor do I anticipate that I will.
I think that's whats got me today.
Though today is just another day,
and I'll have a new one tomorrow.
Tomorrow....
Yours,
Miss Average

Just another day

So I know it's been a while since I've checked in, but I've had so much going on in my average everyday little life...you know the busy stuff that makes you feel like you haven't really accomplished anything? Yea its that stuff. So here's what I've been up to...

1. I went to California with my best friend. I LOVED Santa Barbra. I learned that my best friend and I are headed in very different directions- and I'm ok with that. I came away with an indescribable feeling of gratitude towards the members in Cali. Their kindness, acceptance and willingness to serve some girl they'd never met before changed me, they set an example I won't soon forget.

2. School started. I changed my major to Business Management. I'm making friends and sharing the gospel...it feels great.

3. Still working at the dental office. Attempting to share what I know with a man I work with. He's an Atheist-he's searching.

4. Elder California goes home this week. I'm freaking out.

5. Institute classes started, I'm excited to learn.

There isn't much else going on, just the normal day to day junk. But I'm enjoying it. I love where I'm at, though I can't help but wonder where I'm headed....

Thats all for now.

Yours truly,

Miss average